Wisdom (Reverb 10, Day 10)

Today’s prompt: What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)

Ah, but what if there have been no wise decisions?

I kept trying to think of something wise I could point to, something sage, something that would make me appear to be sitting on top of the mountain, or at least vaguely aware of where the trail starts to get to the top. Instead, I thought this: “Vanity of vanities; all is vanity.”

Someone wise said that. It’s the closest I can come to even defining what a wise choice is–just some happy vanity of the mind.

One person’s wisdom is another’s foolishness. Your own best decisions are probably also your worst. Life is risk, and nothing is so straight forward as to be purely wise.

If I put money in savings, I did not use it to pay off a debt. If I championed one person, I probably insulted another. If I took care of one responsibility, I probably neglected another.

How can you measure what is wise anyway when it is impossible to measure all possible outcomes from all possible choices? Once a decision has been made, the available choices and possible outcomes have been changed. It is impossible to know what might have been. It is impossible to guess what the best path might have been.

We can claim wisdom if we want to reassure ourselves, but it’s all still just vanity.

And all of that is just to say…I got nothin’. I hope other people have been a little wiser than that this year.

Party (Reverb 10, Day 9)

Prompt for Dec 9: What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans. (Author: Shauna Reid)

I’m a day late and a few dollars short on responding to this. Yesterday, my idea of partying was to come home from work and crash. I highly recommend that for those who have been running on fumes and suddenly realize a big gust of wind has just blown away the last of the fumes.

I’m not sure I know how to respond to this anyway. I’m not much of a party girl. I don’t like crowds. I’m shy around strangers. Parties are usually awkward and uncomfortable for me.

I do like to relax with a few friends, however, and I’ve had some nice times doing that this year. I’ve eaten in some good restaurants, had some good laughs.

Aside from family events and work-related events, though, I think I’ve done a pretty good job of avoiding anything that might be called a party this year. At the same time, we’ve had a big string of family functions. When I left work yesterday, someone said, “Who is having a shower or a wedding or a birthday or a baby this weekend?” I was surprised when I realized no one was. I’d sort of gotten used to the idea that every weekend was for a family birthday or shower or wedding or whatnot.

I’ve been to a few baby showers and wedding showers recently. I’ve had the cake, and I’ve ooohed over the gifts, and I’ve mingled over the coffee. Mostly, though, I’ve spent the time following children around. The party theme among the kiddie set this year has been trampolines.

Some people do know how to party.

walking on sunshine II

walking on sunshine

Wild Things (Orton-ish)

Maybe I should have gotten on there with them. Maybe I would feel like I’d been partying a whole lot more if I had.