Total Failure

This is not a success story. Perhaps other people announce they are going to be better at simply being better and bumble along from day to day in such a manner as to somehow eke out success, but those people are not me, and their story is not mine. Last week, I said I was going to launch a new challenge called Project Sharon. Honestly, this is what I get for coming up with such a lame idea. Nothing about it worked out.

I thought that if I established manageable goals for the week and went forth and accomplished the goals one-by-one, I’d have myself a better Sharon in no time flat. Unfortunately, the day after I announced my scheme I came down with strep throat. If the universe conspires to give us what we need when we are making an effort to learn, I must have needed humility first of all. It’s fairly lowering to have to show up for my first report on how I’ve done only to say that I didn’t do anything.

Lesson 1 — Goals don’t come with guarantees no matter how motivated you are.

There will be set-backs. I guess the set-backs show us how much we really want what we’re going after. Ironically enough, my primary goal with all this self-improvement talk is to just feel better. I want to feel better physically and emotionally. I want to feel better in ways that help me get a better grasp on my responsibilities and on life in general. I want to feel better, and so the first thing I do on my quest to find out how to make that happen is to come down with strep throat. I don’t think I’m reading the right how-to books on this.

Mine is not a success story, not yet, and possibly not ever. With a little willpower and a little luck, it could become a perseverance story, however, and if it does I expect to have learned something along the way.

Week 1 of my 2012 project I am scrapping as a total loss. On to Week 2. I’m not even going to bother to post a list of goals. My goal for Week 2 is to do better than I did in Week 1. It shouldn’t be hard, but I don’t like to tempt fate by saying so.

One Step At a Time #photoaday #project365

Day 14: One Step At a Time

14 of 365.

After being sick all week, I wasn’t sure I had it in me to walk very far, but I thought it was important to try. I went to the track at Wesley Hospital and managed 3/4 of a mile. That’s a far cry from where I wanted to be today, but it’s better than where I’ve been the past few days.

Before I got sick, I set a goal to walk 15 miles this week. I didn’t even make it to 6. If the path the hell is paved with good intentions, the only way I know to walk back from hell is one step at a time. I may not have done anything else today, but I took a step.

Photo process with the Camera Bag app on the iPhone. This is the color cross effect.