Total Failure

This is not a success story. Perhaps other people announce they are going to be better at simply being better and bumble along from day to day in such a manner as to somehow eke out success, but those people are not me, and their story is not mine. Last week, I said I was going to launch a new challenge called Project Sharon. Honestly, this is what I get for coming up with such a lame idea. Nothing about it worked out.

I thought that if I established manageable goals for the week and went forth and accomplished the goals one-by-one, I’d have myself a better Sharon in no time flat. Unfortunately, the day after I announced my scheme I came down with strep throat. If the universe conspires to give us what we need when we are making an effort to learn, I must have needed humility first of all. It’s fairly lowering to have to show up for my first report on how I’ve done only to say that I didn’t do anything.

Lesson 1 — Goals don’t come with guarantees no matter how motivated you are.

There will be set-backs. I guess the set-backs show us how much we really want what we’re going after. Ironically enough, my primary goal with all this self-improvement talk is to just feel better. I want to feel better physically and emotionally. I want to feel better in ways that help me get a better grasp on my responsibilities and on life in general. I want to feel better, and so the first thing I do on my quest to find out how to make that happen is to come down with strep throat. I don’t think I’m reading the right how-to books on this.

Mine is not a success story, not yet, and possibly not ever. With a little willpower and a little luck, it could become a perseverance story, however, and if it does I expect to have learned something along the way.

Week 1 of my 2012 project I am scrapping as a total loss. On to Week 2. I’m not even going to bother to post a list of goals. My goal for Week 2 is to do better than I did in Week 1. It shouldn’t be hard, but I don’t like to tempt fate by saying so.

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