{"id":2311,"date":"2021-01-03T10:51:12","date_gmt":"2021-01-03T16:51:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/?p=2311"},"modified":"2021-01-03T10:51:12","modified_gmt":"2021-01-03T16:51:12","slug":"pain-diary-5","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/?p=2311","title":{"rendered":"Pain Diary #5"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><em>on breaking the rules<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I imagine myself hiking without pain because this is what the therapy exercise has told me to do. I do it wrong. Even my dreams know the climb is hard. I skip that and go straight to the mountaintop where I sit and become one with the vista. There\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s no pain if you are nothing but landscape and beauty. Soon I will be the sunset, my pain the contrast that makes others sigh in wonder. For now, I am bright sunlight, rolling fields in the distance, and unanchored possibility. I have climbed mountains in my time. Today, I cannot walk to the mailbox without pain, and my dreams won\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t be fooled into believing otherwise. I spare myself even the imagined act of walking uphill in my heavy boots that are probably making blisters on my real arthritic feet in this imaginary Eden. I have learned nothing from the exercise except that my path is my own. My imagination doesn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t easily follow rules, and that is how I have survived so far.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>on breaking the rules I imagine myself hiking without pain<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[47,114],"tags":[113],"class_list":["post-2311","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","category-wellness-journey","tag-rheumatoid-arthritis"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2311","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2311"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2311\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2311"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2311"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.writerlyhaphazardry.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2311"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}